Want to be a bride?

I never imagined that I would look forward to the day that I would be doing someone else's laundry. Ryan and I came back from Bend and on the way I started to cry...I was sad because we were each going to our own homes to do laundry. It seems so little but I was genuinely sad that we could not do it at the same time in the same house. I figure someday I will look back on this comment and laugh...But by then I hope I have a house keeper to do all the laundry!

This weekend my roommate was in Eugene, Ryan came over and we had such a great time! Nothing unusual just hanging out...I was cleaning and he was working on the computer, we made dinner together and it hit me, this is my future! I got so excited I hugged him from behind and he dropped his hot dog...serious! He was not happy with me, but at least I had cleaned the counters earlier in the day!

Just to clarify...I am NOT engaged...well not literally. Ryan and I talk about our wedding alot, however there is no ring on my finger and so I am still just the girlfriend.

This creates some odd dilemmas. Like, is it ok to be worried about money for a wedding day that has yet to be set? This is what I am doing. Worrying and then worrying some more. I hope this is normal...otherwise I have a bigger issue. But honestly I worry more about the finances than how I am going to look. Perhaps it is the downside of my line of work, but I wish it didn't concern me so much.

Does this feeling go away once the wedding date is set or should I go and get a prescription for valium?