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This saturday is my first of three bridal showers and I am filled with mixed emotions.
1-excitement...
I have been waiting so long to get to have the shower be for me. I have been to and thrown my fair share so this is really neat to be on the other side.
2-amazement...
So many family members and friends are going out of their way to throw parties for me.
My matron of honor and sister emily and my step mom Tam are hosting one in eugene and I know my bridesmaid and sister Lilli will be there helping. Ryan's mom and her friend Martha are hosting one for ladies in portland. My bridesmaids Beth and Holly are throwing one in Portland for another group of ladies. I never imagined I would be this blessed
3 -Joy...
My dear friends are coming from near and far to be there for my showers. I have cried everytime i hear from a friend who is coming. My dear bridesmaids are blowing me away...Monica is coming all the way from Seattle to be in Eugene and Beth is driving down from Portland.
4 - sadness
Naturally there is a part of me that is sad for the people who are not going to be there...my mom is first on that list, but it is followed by the friends and family members who live too far away. I know they will be there in spirit.

3 out of 4 works for me...I know it takes all the emotions for the feelings to be real. BLESSED...that is where I am going to stay because more than anything else that is how I feel.